The new chapter beginning soon..

finally.. no more exam.. today is the last paper already.. hopefully the effort i put in won't be fruitless as i spent countless nights studying.. will miss the friends i made.. the time i spent with them.. haix.. trying not to be too emotional but i guess by avoiding all will be the best way out.. cruel!! my feelings always get the better of me even when i reminded myself to be strong.. guess i can never do so.. ahahahaha.. wish u all the best in your continual of studies.. my path won't meet with u all but i hope the bond will live forever.. i'll be stepping back into working life after this.. i can proudly said that i finally fulfilled my wish of finishing my diploma.. cheers to myself.. hope i didn't disappoint anyone.. oh.. not forgetting.. happy birthday leona~~
well.. my walk down memory lane this few days was pretty nice.. took an early ride to school this few days to sit at the bus stop where i first met her.. sweet memories.. don't know when will i get the chance to experience this kind of loving feeling again.. stupid of me right?? ahahaha.. but sometimes acting blur over things can actually see a clearer picture on how she looked at me also.. kekekeke.. 7years & when finally someone touched my heart.. i shy away from it as i know reality is cruel.. i'm just hoping for a relationship that is impossible to happen.. but i'm glad that our life ever crossed.. i'm happy enough le.. there's a saying: "loving someone is not by having her but to have her free". i dunno how true the degree of this sentence is but will be looking forward for a future with her if possible.. if possible..

End of tour

finally.. everything ended "officially" yesterday.. i dunno how to describe the feeling but its sad.. some of us may only see each other on the exam day itself & some of us are still able to see each other when we are studying together.. hate to say this but i really hate the feeling of being apart with friends.. *sigh* i still got a lot of things to share with my friends also but time waits for no one.. life will still goes on & everybody will be fighting their own battles again from then on.. tears filled my heart & sadness touched my mind as i'm writing this.. one thing i never regret is that i'm glad that i chose to study in SIM & making all this whole lot of friends.. i'm glad that they crossed my path in life.. no amount of gratitude could be thanked but the gladness of having them is never undying.. not willing to let them go but i got to as everyone will spread their wings & soar towards their goals & i'm likewise.. i wanna thank all of you for the memories you gave me. thank you all~~ ^-^
but i'm ready for my next challenge in life where the working world is waiting for me.. i'll be opening a new chapter in life soon.. a chapter where fights & struggles will be filling most of my career paths.. seen a lot of this ever since i first started working.. i'll work harder to change my life into a better one..
oh.. not forgetting.. last nite went to see the fireworks again.. not as good as fri's but overall still ok la.. kekekeke.. will combine them with the video also.. erm.. i got problem with combining the video also as the free converter online only allows 2mins.. guess i gotta buy le.. haix..

Friendship forever~~~

woah~~ just reached home from the outing.. went out with peggy, yulaini, juthdy, kenichi, geraldyn, jorene, francis, harianto & felix to watch the fireworks display at esplanade.. nice sia.. will try to get the video up as soon as possible.. its a fun & memorable day for me as it is the second last day being together with them.. i will treasure today so dearly in my heart.. tomorrow will be the last day le.. the mix feelings of sadness & excitement is with me.. the very last gathering will be the bbq on the 3rd of sept.. hopefully my emotions won't get the better of me.. its so sad that when we are only beginning to enjoy each other's company, its already time to bid goodbye.. time waits for no one & i do really regret that i still do not know most of the classmates.. but i'm happy enough to know those i got to know. life is short & i always believe that i must treasure the people around me..
today not bad la.. did make so progress in macro.. we managed to "so-called" finished the 14th intake paper.. did cracked out brain but the feeling is nice when we get the answers.. its really morale boasting.. kekekeke.. tomorrow will be the last day for macro & the last lesson for the semester le.. haix.. everyone jia you wor for ya exams.. its rough but we can get through this together de..

Crazy?? Stupid?? Or just lonely??

haix.. kana from friends tat i'm crazy again.. *sigh* y?? because when we were talking about our ideal partner for life.. i just told them that as long as her character is good & no matter how she is, how she look, she's blind or deaf or she got disability.. i'll accept it.. then they gave me a strange look & i got "concerned" by the lectures they gave.. haix.. what's wrong with what i said?? they said i'm just pure stupid or is it i'm just lonely & need a companion.. how cruel can they said this to me?? haix..
i really dun know where's the prob lor.. liking a person is all about her inner beauty than the external beauty rite?? by having a vase for "viewing", are you really happy over it?? will you be happy with her?? is she really the one for you?? if all above dun meet ya category, so what's the point of having her?? or should i be the one waking up my bloody stupid ideas?? i'll still stick to that principal of mine unless someone really can change my mind over it..
to me, liking a person means liking her as a whole.. even she's a prostitute or some criminal, i'll still love her with all my heart if she's the one i'm looking for.. love has no barrier & i always believe in that.. & even with an unspeakable past, what done cannot be undone.. so why not held on to each other's hand & look forward for a better tomorrow & future?? i never wanna live a life with regrets.. the worst thing is that u missed the things u most wanted in life..

What mind mapping is this??

wah.. really wanna kill myself liaox.. the mind mapping for IMEC seem so useless!!! its just like a summary for the whole chapter lor.. felix & me surrendered after 2hours when we feel that we'r not making any progress at all.. sad case.. *sigh* must really sit down & cool my mind off before doing the IMEC write ups.. too tired to go on so i guess i'll take a rest first.. maybe after dinner i'll read through the notes bahx..

Brain "juice" all used up..

nv tot tat the marco past year papers to be so difficult.. we were in high spirit tat we could finished the paper but end up we stuck so long in one section.. damn.. after which we were too tired to continue lor.. haix.. really muz read more on macro.. the qns in the papers were so different from the way the lecturers told us.. guess we gotta spend more time gng thru tis subject le.. tmr will start on IMEC.. hopefully it wun be as rough as today.. headache lor.. *sigh* i not sure if got time to remember so much thgs onot.. arh!!.. one last breadth of "chionging" before it ended.. so sad.. 2 more weeks oni.. T_T

After presentation

woah~~ finally back home le.. the last presentation for the sem & course 'sounded off' with a grand note.. ended smoothly but dunno if result will be good.. hopefully will la 'coz we put in so much effort in it.. kekekeke.. but so tired now as last "nite" slept too "early" le.. sum more sat whole day din slp at all.. i'm gng to find 'zhou gong' play chess soon le.. *yawnz~~*
after presentation we, francis, dovan, ben, irham, jorene, yunkee, harianto, kenichi, kat, jacky & felix, went to PS for "celebration" aka gathering.. abit strange lor 'coz all of us wearing formal.. kekekeke.. after eating went arcade see see look look & play the games.. then we went walk walk but end up stuck at best denki.. were amused by the new guitar game.. funny lor.. jorene was so concentrated in the game.. really funny lor.. thk jacky got took some pics of her.. muahahahaha.. will ask him or francis put up in friendster then we comment on it.. ahahahaha.. look so fierce lor.. actually tot of gng to dovan's wkin plc but everybody were too tired.. so decided to go home.. so here i am.. heex..
tmr will be another tiring day as a few of us will be preparing for exam le.. left 2 more weeks & everythg will end.. sad ar but at the same time feeling happy over it.. so contradicting.. happy 'coz i finally fulfilled my dream of completing my dip.. sad 'coz i gonna part with her soon.. i dunno when will it be tat after the course i'll get to see her. but the memories of her with be kept dearly in my heart..

Just like the old times

Woah~~ finally finished the video taking for the IMEC project.. Its just as fun as the HR project the other time.. kekekeke.. but sianx lor.. mon gotta wear formal for the presentation.. hopefully the jury will be lenient with us.. haix.. already the last sem still give us this stun..
Haix.. talking about which.. time really flies.. I would really missed most of the classmates especially her.. *sigh* she stole my heart since the first time i saw her at the bus stop where i used to change my bus.. i didn't know she was from our class until sem 2.. omg.. how careless of me for not knowing that.. haix.. by the time i know her.. its already time to say goodbye.. how sad but no regrets knowing her also.. how stupid of me.. shy away from her but at the same time liking her.. so so so one sided.. kinda like this feeling as too long not in a relationship.. its nice but at the same time, i can feel the sour heart..

Thoughts far ahead??

yesterday went out with a group of classmates.. suppose to go cycling with them but end up nobody wanna go.. ahahahaha.. but even without going cycling, we did enjoy ourselves with the hang out session.. went to watch Rush Hour3 with them.. nice show.. recommended & a show not to be missed.. after which was dinner & after which went to walk around to shop for ken's stuff but end up jorene bought toy for her nephew.. we seem to enjoy alot at the toys' fair.. so funny.. seem like i found my childhood days there.. kekekeke.. then it was time for them to go, so sent ken & jorene to their bus stop before francis & me head to our respective destination..
went for some gathering with old pals.. its nice to see all of them again.. nothing much change but can see that age is catching up on us.. after the movie, everybody looked so tired lor.. ahahahaha.. did went for some chit chatting session before we made a move..
later gonna meet up with a bro who is flying tomorrow to Vancouver.. will be "so-called" the last time seeing him.. whenever we met, he would always ask me when i wanna join him there.. i would always tell him wait till i settle everything here.. it is my wish all this while to fly overseas to explore & work.. its nice to see the different cultures.. knowing nothing gonna change my mind on it, i would work towards that direction.. but where?? surely somewhere i am familiar with right?? this thought never fails me & will always hold me back.. what if i have someone in mind that made me stay?? would i still go as i wished?? my direction blurred when the thoughts raises.. *sigh* i need to reassure myself more as its my path of life..

What the hell am I doing!!!!!

so disappointed with my test today.. the paper is really quite easy but i messed up again.. haix.. its so simple but i made it looked so difficult until i oversee my points.. really deserve to fail this time.. the MPC is given & yet i do so much just to find the stupid MPS.. haix.. this is the 1st time i'm so confident in a test lor.. never felt any paper any easier than this.. arh!!!!!!!!! really hate myself for being so careless.. really got no face to face myself & others.. super low morale now.. must try to stand on my feet again for the coming main exam.. so so so disappointed.. *sigh* what done cannot be undone.. i really dunno what to say le.. suddenly lost interest in this subject.. damn pissed with myself & only blame myself for my own stupidity.. i can go bang as many walls as i can now.. maybe that can help in my brain.. *pui*