Outing with daughter

yestd went to marina south to have dinner with my baby ger daughter.. along were kenichi, felix, harianto & 2 of my daughter's frenz.. the "husband & wife" were so happy when they saw each other.. muahahaha.. i dunno if ken was angry onot but we try to say less of it.. worried tat he might.. but luckily.. he did joke it off.. kekekeke.. aft eating.. did nth & planned to catch a movie.. since dunno wat was on, we went to cineleisure.. as ken got dragon boat training today.. i dropped him off at the bus stop sumwhere near cine to let him go hm.. at cine, we looked at the time slots' big screen for sum time before buying the tickets for 'balls of fury'.. quite funny but its not as stupid as 'american pie' or 'scary movie'.. heng ar.. kekekeke.. aft movie was bck hm as everybody were tired oreadi..

Battle cry..

juz checked my result & i feel like doing sumthg.. the urge is very strong.. i wanna go to the sea-side & shout out my achievement.. i finally can proudly said that i fulfilled my wish of getting a dip.. tho the cert is not as gd as the poly ones but i still get it le.. many thanks to all whom stood by me all this while when i din clear my macro.. no amount of gratitude can express my feelings now except a simple "Thank You".. the support u all gave did really made me push harder.. finally.. everything ends today as i would be intensively looking for jobs.. last but not least.. I MADE IT!!! its been a long 15months..

Guessed I was too free..

after 2 rounds of interviews, i was home drenched because it was raining heavily.. damn.. actually wanna go cycling but can't but also luckily it was raining also.. kekekeke.. *phew* the calls came quite late also.. so i was rushing to both.. tired..
aft bathing.. i did nth.. suddenly my mind recalled many things.. many images i felt that i seen before but so unfamiliar & alien at the same time.. were those the "lost" memories i'm searching & seeking for? i saw many people but i can't recall who are they.. the more i think, the more the brain feel as if its gonna explode.. & so.. i let go of the recalling.. *sigh* at the very moment i stopped, her face appeared.. its been 7years that i last able to remember the details of her so clearly.. her eyes.. her nose.. her lips.. her hands.. her voice.. its like a video recorder out of order.. the images of her just flashes across non-stop.. i was so stunned by the event & not knowing what to do, i bang real hard on the wall, hoping to stop it & luckily, after a few bangs it stopped.. i think i was too free already that's why all this came haunting me.. i was strong enough not to shed a single tear.. guess i was ready to "forget" her.. not sure but hope the next time if i think of her again, i won't tear.. not cold-blooded but i need to step out of the shadow already.. i got haunted long enough..

Grazed around

did nothing much this few days.. went out & "dating" most of the time.. kekekeke.. today went out with peiqi to get present for a classmate who is returning to serve his NS.. felt quite useless as i didn't really help much.. after buying went to have some ice-cream.. then was farewell & i head off to visit my granny.. chat with her awhile as she was tired & she went off to sleep.. so i made my move to find kat as i was around the area.. haix.. met up awhile & i was down with stomach pain.. damn.. waited 10mins for the cubicle to clear.. damn.. i was breaking into cold sweat lor.. cheh.. dun ever wan tat kinda feeling again.. arh!! after i came out saw ning with her.. kekekeke.. so embarrassed to make them wait but its not my fault really.. so head to hawker to have dinner & after tat to kat's place.. harold came & we chit chat until its time to go off..
haix.. i still dun haf the courage to say it.. when will i be able to do it? am i too concerned about rejection? i hate tat kinda feeling & i noe nobody like it either but wat to do.. its the only way to noe if she likes u onot.. *sigh*

就是爱你 (Just love u)

To My Friends Who Are............ATTACHED

Being together is always easy but maintaining the relationship is never one. Trust each other more as jealousy will eventually lead to harvest-less garden. If the love is never meant for each other, let it go. There’s always someone for you in this boundless space.

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我终于还是说了一句我爱你 (I finally said the word "I Love U")
还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨 (Still remembering that rainy night)

心跳的声音像舞动奇迹 (My heart beats like a dance)
你看着我说千万不要爱上你 (U looked at me & told me not to fall for u)
因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停 (Because u'll only make me sad, don't be a fool & stop)
你那么冷静忽远又忽近 (u'r so quiet.. sumtimes far, sumtimes near)

我知道你对我来说也许太年轻 (I know u'r too young for me)
我想我猜我问我终于了解 (I thought, i guessed, i asked & finally understand)

原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味 ('cause the tears sheered for love can be so sweet)
只想爱你当我和你走在一起就已经决定 (I decided to only love u when i walked with u)

不看不听不问也不会放弃 (Ain't lookin, ain't listernin, ain't askin & not giving up)
是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定 (u let me noe tat i can love so firmly)

只想爱你好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你 (juz wana luv u like openein my eyes everyday)
我知道我偶尔有一点任性 (I noe sumtimes i'm stubborn)

不管你做任何决定究竟爱我还是逃避 (no matter wat decisions u made, i still hide frm luv)
sorry 我还是不会放弃爱你 (对不起. I still wun give up on luvin u)

sorry 我还是不会放弃 (对不起. I still wun give up)
我还是不会放弃爱你 (I still will not give up on luvin u)

Dedicated to all......

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you.
But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts,
but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.
So take your time and choose the best.


To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.
It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.


To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......
My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

Expressing problem?

guess i really need to go for some english upgrading course.. i'm mistaken over what i wrote again.. irritated.. whatever la.. its not the first time i got shot over something i did not intend it to be.. misrepresented the message? guess i care too much on explaining myself to clear the air just now.. i should just accept the blame & jolly get over with it.. well.. already happened.. just leave it as it is bahx.. any continual of the conversation will lead to worse response..

Hoping for a pass only.. Is it too much?

haix.. the paper today looks easy but i find it quite tricky & challenging wor.. damn.. i really can't assure of a pass le.. got the concepts but why alwayz got a mental blockage when coming to the main thing.. sianx.. saw quite alot of familiar faces in the exam hall.. some of them i don't expect to fail was there too.. quite shocked.. felt that i had let my mentor down.. wasted so much of her time & effort.. seem like i let down to those who have the fate in me.. sorry to disappoint u all.. i'm disappointed in myself too.. what done cannot be undone.. i had tried my best le.. *sigh*

Just laze around..

wah.. damn tired now.. just reached home from studying.. jialet ar.. still can't get much things into my brain yet.. most of the concept i got them correct le.. think just see how the paper goes le.. haix.. was with ning & kat at my place's mac.. really hope the stupid paper will be much easier lor.. sianx.. hope for a pass will do.. i guess i stress out by pressurising myself too much.. although still can't get over how i failed but i'll take it as a simple set-back to build myself stronger to prepare for worse set-backs.. i'm grateful that so many shown their concern.. i won't forget the things u all said de.. *touched* i will fight-toh!!~~ woosh!!!!
btw.. the previous post is not talking about anyone.. so don't be mistaken if anything similar took place or happened to someone.. its a way i vent my anger only.. vent at nobody so created a "enemy" for me to vent at.. my apology..

Super bad mood

Fucking just leave everybody alone idiot.. dun keep going ard & asked how everybody did.. i noe u passed but it irritates people.. not only me.. reality is cruel.. so be it.. u'r being dislike!!! get it?? yeah.. big fuck.. i fail my macro.. like it or not.. yeah.. i failed.. its a blow to me as its my 1st sub paper i ever took in SIM.. u wan a piece of me?? come get me.. fuck!!! maybe its him/her tat made me blow.. ha!!! really must see the person who showed u the concern at times like tis.. juz fuck off!!!

I think i know all this while..

yaya.. i think some of u craving for my emo blog already right?? kekekeke..
"最后仍然是手放开".. do this look familiar? of coz la.. for those who had caught me on msn will see this on my avatar.. its really nth la as my few posts already told much on what happened.. already noticed she got someone in mind.. i know i'm not good enough for her but still I really wanna tell her how I feel about her.. But thanks to ning.. I was "pre-informed" that I got no luck in love life this month and that someone has someone to chase after her.. sad case.. haix.. forget it bahx.. arh!!! sometime I really wonder why i don't fucking finished my dip the other time & suffer less of this kinda r/s" prob.. liking a person is ez but y telling them is so difficult?? afraid of being hurt again?? yes i am!! being a coward again?? yes i am!! hiding & shying from love again?? yes i am!! then y the hell i got the courage to like her then?? i'm really a big failure in r/s.. now she got a target le so wat can i say now?? nth again.. its all bck to basic.. all is gone!! all is gone......... i can only again view her frm afar.. really far this time.. juz let me sink deeper & con't to fall into my pit-less sadness..

This few days~~

Nothing much happened after the bbq except going for a job interview & a small gathering session due to kester's birthday..
yesterday went out in a small group with francis, jorene, keichin, felix, kez, yunkee, harianto & me.. went for lunch at the basement of suntec & after tat was ice-cream time!! yunkee, kenichi & me can't resist the temptation.. kekekeke.. kenichi head off early as he got to go for his dragon boat training.. after which went to walk around & got stuck at the toys' road show for quite some time.. bought stuffs there & got an advance bdae present for yunkee.. kekekeke.. its just a cookie monster soft toy but looks cute.. ahahahaha.. then got sumthg for sum1 else but its no surprise to her.. *cheh* then went to play arcade.. must admit i old liaox.. i can't even do DDR properly liaox.. omg!!! used to be one of my favorite game lor.. ahahahaha.. after that kez & yunkee gotta go so i walked them to the escalator.. i took the chance & go out walk walk & rest while they con't with photo hunt.. kekekeke.. buay tahan lor.. then head down to marina square.. they wanted bowling but no lane available so end up having a game of pool.. during the game sum1 oreadi complained hungry so we went to eat at the stalls beside DXO.. the food not bad but sumhw cannot make it oso.. haix.. took cab home after that..
Recently also had a deal with xinning over the "save-the-world-&-no-smoking-till-result-day-or-else-punishment" campaign.. ahahahaha.. i think i can survive that since its my 5th attempt to stop.. must stop this time.. nobody's fault that i become like that as its my own will that i wanted to quit even before this campaign.. appreciate her help also.. kekekeke.. i'm not alone anyway.. muahahahaha.. but i'm having sum prob also.. my body seem not able to take it.. so i gotta rely on my mind to control myself le.. hope i can really quit this time, ending my many years of smoking.. fight-toh!!!~~

Class bbq

woah~~ just had a filled sleep.. was so tired when i reached home & i almost din pulled myself to the bath room.. ahahahaha..
can say that the class bbq was a huge success.. hope everyone enjoyed the event as much as i had.. everybody were in high spirits except for the scene for partings.. haix.. i just hate goodbyes.. i still can't avoid myself for being emotional again.. damn.. it was so embarrassing.. ya ya.. rain filled my eyes.. *its was raining also* the thoughts of parting was too great for me i guess.. hope my emo did not or will not affect or turn off anyone.. kekekeke.. this maybe the last time we could gather as such a big group.. from now on.. i gotta accept that we won't be seeing as much as it used to be.. well.. most of them will be continuing their studies so i think still will have the ability to meet them up.. hoping so & looking forward to.. all the best mates~~ ^-^