2nd month anniversary

Look how time flies.. its been 2 months.. happy 2 months anniversary dear~ ^-^ though we have not gone through any “serious” setbacks but I do hope you’ll be happy all the time being with me.. I may not be the best guy you met but I’ll try to be the best guy for you.. having you is my greatest gift.. I treasure all moments we spent together.. thanks for everything.. I love you!!~ yaya I know.. I said this too many times and you don’t find it special anymore.. whatever it is.. its sincere from my heart.. all I want from you is that simple.. just want you to love me wholeheartedly only.. heex.. =P
Recently still trying very very hard to commit myself at work.. I find no energy to do things.. can’t find any strength from within to push me on.. everything is so dull.. the only comfort I have is close friends I made during my time there.. I’m glad and grateful for all this but to be frank.. this is not the place I want to work in.. its just don’t suit me at all.. My mum told me to hang on until I can find a better job as she could tell that I’m not myself for some time.. I don’t want to worry also so will just say I’m fine.. hopefully this won’t for too long.. yaya.. the same old complain I have.. pay sux and etc.. do bear with me for this while k.. kekekeke..

Weighted feelings

Hasn't been feeling happy recently. Maybe its due to work or stress? The only time I felt at ease is when I'm with her or friends. But this few days didn't meet her or friends so everything had been kept inside my heart. Sometimes I just dunno what to do. Just feel like getting away from work for a long while or is it that I'm running away from reality? *sigh* The last job I held I totally did not have this kind of feelings except for a break only but not escaping from it. Why things had become this way? I don't know either. I guess partly the pay is too little and that's why I felt this way. 27 this year & achieve nothing at all. A total failure. How pathetic can I go? If I continue to sulk this way, I guess I can never walk out of this mess. I don't wanna stress myself out until I go insane. My heart is weary from all factors that's gashing all at me. Its heavy & felt like its drowning, out of breath.