Building up on..

finally got a resolution last night even though its a short while.. clarrified things with her & got to know all the details.. we promised to work things out together.. looking at & building on our future is much more impotant than anything else now.. my heart is still a little shaken over some issues but i guessed its best kept within me & not rake them up in front of her to make her unhappy or sad as i know the problems will keep on resurfacing if i kept raking them up.. rather than doing so, i want to treasure every moment with her, giving & leaving her the best memories she ever had.. as long as she's happy, i don't mind what would happen to me even the worst things would befall unto me.. recently a classmate just hopped back into r/s.. i didn't know until i was told.. congrats to her & the guy who won her heart.. he started later than me but looking at myself.. i'm never near to his achievement.. sadly but truely.. i'm nowhere near my goal.. am i that lousy? am i really that useless? where is the confident i once had when i set my mind on going after her? frankly.. i don't know how much i stand in her heart.. how close is close? will she miss me? will she think of me & so on.. guess i asked for too much.. *sigh*