Far from it but still trying

kinda got some assurance from her & i can finally put my mind at ease & go full throttle towards that direction.. i finally find my old self back so can see alot more differences in me.. will be emo still if not u all will missed my nice posts.. kekekeke.. will see a more confident side of me.. its being a long long time i took that out from deep within me.. guess it was "that" pushing factor that lead me to it.. i'm not sure how long i gotta wait still before she accept me but i'm kinda happy with things as it is now.. i know i'm slow & super simple-minded idiot who always messed things up at the most crucial point.. wanna express certain things but always tongue tied.. haix.. am i that shy or simply lost my sense of expressing?