Lost: Season 6 ???

recently feel so lost with job hunting & in sum other things.. there's too many uncertainty over my future.. i'm glad & happy over the encouragement from friends but the mental blockage in my mind & the matter at heart cannot be untie.. i cannot give myself assurance anymore.. am i asking for too much from myself? am i aiming too high? am i soaring too far from reality? am i too optimistic or pessimistic? am i giving myself too much pressure? everything in front of me suddenly become so blurriness when the light ahead is so dim.. i guess i'm too impatient in both problems i'm facing.. i just don't want to disappoint my family who has been pinning high hopes on me.. i can feel the burden unknowingly.. they did encourage me to further my studies but i think i want to build my career as now, for my age, i need to prove something in life already.. i'm no longer young as seen.. ning was right about my fickle-minded mentality.. i just cannot decide what i want.. i really need a morale boasting push.. i need to focus on my mind set.. i really need to sit down and think over my life.. i had missed out alot in life already and don't wish to lag behind again.. i want to enjoy life as much as possible.. make it as colorful as ever.. sound as beautiful as can be.. i want to achieve in life.. i don't want to disappoint anyone around me again.. i know i can do it but just too timid to move on.. i'm too careful with my path i'm stepping but at the same time making the same mistake? opportunities are everywhere but which is the correct one? nobody says its easy on what u sow and results are never guaranteed all the while.. am i simply digging my own grave? thinking life is that easy only.. i'm sure i'm very wrong on this step.. i need to step back to look at things from different angels.. if i just lay still and see again.. the world will be better or worse?